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So my friend Andrea keep telling me, "You should start a blog from the standpoint of a stay-at-home dad". And I resist, cos honestly, it's not all that exciting. A majority of it is watching television while the baby hangs out in either the Johnny Jump-Up, or her little entertainment saucer, or she sits on the couch next to me while we watch shitty OnDemand movies like 'Cheerleader Beach' or 'The Malibu Bikini Shop'.she should go to sleep cos she's tired. Other times, it's me holding her while she cries her ass off cos she's too stupid to realize that Sometimes I even play video games. Usually it's RPG's, as you can just pause that shit and not have to worry about the passage of time. Turn-based ones are best.

The thing about being a dad to a female is that you subconsciously go over all the shit that you've done to women and you also go over the shit you would do to women if you weren't attached. For example: watching a Lifetime movie about cheerleaders freaks me out to no end. Should my child end up like one of these, for lack of a better word, bitches, I will probably have to shoot myself. Yeah, I'll love her regardless of what she ends up like; but for the first time in my life, I find myself directly responsible for how another person ends up. And that shit is terrifying. I've had guns held to my head, like AK-47's, and outside of the "I hope I don't shit my pants in front of these guys", I have never felt this scared. I imagine that's a good thing.
I've always felt that we build the world we hope to live in by the way we raise our children. The ethics that we want to live in are eventually determined by our children. When people say that we can change the world we live in, what they mean is that our children will determine where we live.
At least that's what I think. And I could be wrong. It would be the first time.

I've been drinking wine. So I'll go away. I don't know what I'll post later in this. But it's probably going to be about being a dad. And trust me, that shit is boring.